On Balance...
Mood:  happy
Topic: Daily Eruptions
Scott wrote me! Big, Big, Yay!! Apparently, I had been writing to him at an address he stopped checking six years ago. So he wasn't freezing me out, and, as long as he doesn't go searching for the messages I sent, I wasn't making a total fool of myself trying to get him to write back to me.

It was a blur of a great week overall. I had a fun phone interview with Stewart, in which he made it clear that I had misinterpreted his comments about not wanting a woman who was too smart, and a really wonderful conversation with James that finally started clearing away some of the breakup junk between us that we had been avoiding. I finished the pitching class, and actually managed to write drafts of six queries in six weeks! Totally amazing. I'm actually going to continue researching and editing them, and I plan to eventually send every one of them out in the mail. I managed to get off something of a course description for the children's summer class I want to facilitate on writing from nature. The only thing I let slip through the cracks was getting in touch with Billie about the PestEd curriculum. Will have to get on that first thing next week.

The only downside to the week is that today (Friday) is Hans's birthday and I managed to cause an argument (again, about baking for him in light of the three-page list of ingredients I am forced to avoid - you know, eggs, wheat flour, refined sugar, gluten, anything enriched) without meaning to. I think he heard what I said through a filter he's developed- he heard me say what I've said before, when in fact, I think I actually said something quite different. He thought I was complaining about how difficult it is to bake for him, when what I really said was I was disappointed that the system I set in place to make baking for him easier failed me tonight and I still didn't have the ingredients I needed. I seriously was just sad that, after stopping at one store to pick up lemons, I couldn't come home and find everything else I needed in the cupboard. That was the way it was supposed to work. But it didn't, and now I really do need to go to two more stores tomorrow, one of which is an hour away, to buy him the ingredients I need to make him what will most likely still be an inedible, gluten-free, vegan lemon cake. And I'm not mad, I'm just seriously sad that I didn't get it done for him tonight, on his actual birthday. He didn't hear that, though, and stormed off to bed, refused to open my present, and said he wanted to be left alone. So, now he's alone, and it's after 1 a.m. and I'm still sitting here writing to no one. Guess we shouldn't stop the marriage counseling any time soon. It's too bad, because we were doing so great, and I managed to ruin it. Takes talent, I'm tellin' ya'. Years of practice and loads of talent.

But I've been awake so long it's already a new day....

Love.