Revisions
Mood:  sad
Topic: Daily Eruptions
Okay, so I revised my statement about not cooking for Hans. If he will keep the necessary ingredients on hand, then I will continue to cook and bake for him. I don't think it's my job, though, to go to three stores--or more!--looking for the exact right ingredients, when he goes to those places throughout the month and can just be sure everything is stocked. I got online today and found the Spectrum Organic site and the shortening product is made from a single ingredient that Hans can eat, so we either need to order it online and have it Express Shipped (in the summer months, express shipping is required) or find a retailer who carries it. They have a second product, refined Coconut Oil that can also be used as a butter substitute. But after 11 years of being the one who has to find and adapt every recipe for every recognizable dish Hans eats, and when the list of things I have to avoid using grows every year, I'm really burned out. It would be different if Hans were a child with severe allergies and had to rely on me to do all of this for him. But Hans is old enough and capable of doing these things for himself--it's just such a gigantic hassle he has given up on baking and relies on me to do it for him. His idea of cooking is to open a can of tuna or sardines (with 3 ingredients or less and absolutely without broth), a can of black beans (again, 3 ingredients or less), and pour them over a bowl of crushed up tortilla chips (3 ingredients or less, no spices, no partially hydrogenated, etc.). So, Hans's end of the deal is that he no longer gets to walk into the kitchen, find me cooking or baking something for myself, and guilt me by saying, "I wish I had brownies/chili/fill in the blank," in his sad sack voice to make me feel bad for not taking three times longer to cook from scratch something that he could also eat.